green tea ice cream is yum

i want to take a picture of balloons from below with the sky as the background. rite aid ran out of helium and i don't know anyone who works in a chemistry lab to helium my balloon for me. so today, sergius ever so nice helped me try to make my non-helium balloons fly. we tied thread between two trees in the courtyard and then taped the balloons to the thread. but it was super duper windy today with speeds up to 32kph! after a while, we gave up and went in pursuit of helium balloons.

found some in brattle square florist and was happy as can be. took quite a few pictures with sergius holding the balloons but it was so windy that i had to wait for the wind to die down so that the balloons will stand straight up all the while holding the camera pointed at angle i want to shoot the balloons. i think sergius was quite tired from holding the balloons up also. heehee. :)

anyhow. after a while, i realized there weren't clouds in the sky because the wind blew them all away. we went in pursuit of clouds but then i felt quite bad because sergius had already expended an hour and a half of his time to help me with my balloons. so then i went back to the quad and was just going to tie the balloons to some railing and take pictures. i scouted a few potential spots and decided just to use the area at the back entrance.

i tied the balloons to the railing and turned to take my camera out. as i turned, i realized the sound of bumping balloons stopped and turned back in time to see my balloons fly away! up up and away! 30 seconds later, the balloons were nowhere to be seen.

imma so sad.

went back to my room to see my one tenth completed lab report on my table and felt even sadder. i hate my lab report. i wish it would write itself. imma not going to take anymore mcb classes. i am not cut out for biology.

anyhoo. tomorrow i shall go get more helium balloons to take pictures of. i checked the wind speed and it's about 13kph. much better than 32kph. hopefully i get good pictures. everyone will be back from thanksgiving break tomorrow and hopefully i don't look too silly taking pictures of the balloons. i think taking pictures will be a nice break from having to write my lab report.

less than a month more to home! hohoho!

p53 is a tumour suppressor protein

ignoring the problem and running away from it doesn't solve anything.

i lost one side of my purple earrings. i am sad.

every dark cloud has a silver lining

i need to do something other than study. was trying to work on my lab report but i get so distracted by the smallest things. like the urge to check the temperature outside every 5 minutes even though i'm not going anywhere. maybe i want to go somewhere. i do want to go somewhere. but i don't know where. maybe i'll walk to the fresh pond again. but it's kinda cold. and isolated.

things change. and expectations have to change accordingly.

i wish i were at home. everyone keeps telling me it's only one more month. but in that one month i still have psets to do, papers to write, exams to take and matches to play. it's not the time that bothers me. it's what i have to accomplish that makes me nervous. not just what i have to do, but that i have to do it well. what if i don't do well. i don't want to think about it. there isn't any point thinking about it. i still have to do it.

i enjoy my non-concentration classes more than my concentration classes. maybe i chose the wrong concentration. this is bad.

i just want to go outside and take pictures. i feel like playing squash too. or do i really? i think i'm just thinking of ways to procrastinate and not work on my lab report.

i think i will read satyricon.

and wait for my silver lining to appear.

your song

why haven't i watched moulin rouge. i watched a third of it yesterday and it was amazing. i wanted to keep watching but dom had to go and i had to do work and colin wanted to keep us there. anyways. i want to watch moulin rouge. winter break. yes. okay!

it's a little bit funny this feeling inside
i'm not one of those who can easily hide
i don't have much money but if i did
i'd buy a big house where we both could live

if i was a sculptor, but then again, no
or a man who makes potions in a travelling show
i know it's not much but it's the best i can do
my gift is my song and this one's for you

and you can tell everybody this is your song
it may be quite simple but now that it's done
i hope you don't mind
i hope you don't mind that i put down in words
how wonderful life is while you're in the world

i sat on the roof and kicked off the moss
well a few of the verses well they've got me quite cross
but the sun's been quite kind while i wrote this song
it's for people like you that keeps it turned on

so excuse me forgetting but these things i do
you see i've forgotten if they're green or if they're blue
anyway the thing is what i really mean
yours are the sweetest eyes i've ever seen

and you can tell everybody this is your song
it may be quite simple but now that it's done
i hope you don't mind
i hope you don't mind that i put down in words
how wonderful life is while you're in the world

- elton john

stopstopstopstopstop

i love my photography class.

i don't mind spending a gazillion hours in the basement of the carpenter center editing pictures.

i like being in the photolab. i do my physics and mcb psets there.

i want to concentrate in ves.

immasotired.

don't make me sad.

no more energy to be happy.

sunshine makes me happy.

immaneedsolarpanel.

hohoho.

don't go. i could eat you up i love you so.

is not good day. boo.

i wish there were curls in my hair

and 48 hours in a day.